i'm back! am sorry to say that i'm not doing as well as i have been for the past months, and i'm honestly struggling a lot with my mental rn... i just had the most intense exam season in my life and i don't think i came out of it quite the same person as i used to be. oh well! i'm glad its over, but i'm still really anxious about my grades because i'm frankly pretty disappointed with my performance. i guess it's too early to say though - my perceived performance might be very different from reality. anyhow, wish me luck!
i now have some more free time and may be updating this site more often (i know i always say this but i hope it's true this time). other than that, i plan to do lots of other stuff! given that i can get myself out of this rut and actually find some purpose in doing things i enjoy, i want to go volunteering more often and also get back on the intellectual grind. i have lots of books to read and a lot of films to watch... hehehe
some stuff i've been up to since i finished exams: i started volunteering on a farm (which was so much fun btw!!!), went back to the cinema for a kurosawa movie marathon, played a lot of ff7r, and journalled a little too. i still feel quite terrible most of the time, but i'm hoping it goes away with time. i kind of need it to!
my birthday recently passed, and it honestly also felt quite terrible so i don't want to think about it too much. but yeah that's what's been happening in my life! i'm celebrating a friend's birthday tomorrow and will be occupied with other stuff for the rest of the week, but i probably should get started on the things i want to do soon yessss
- j